Career choices

There are so many things that I am interested in doing in life that I am not sure what it is that I really want to do. I think I am afraid that all the effort I have made will be for nothing. I mean maybe I really am just worrying too much about stuff that will ultimately be out of my hands, but on the same note. What if I am not worrying enough? I mean I think I have come to a certain point in my life where I have grown up quite a bit, I have realized that no one is going to do it for me, and that waiting till the last minute is not going to get me anywhere. I’m glad that I have come to that realization. I just think that I have become the type of person who looks to the future and really tries to plan as much as I can.

But I guess you can’t always plan everything ya know. I mean here I am trying to figure out a way to get a better job and never to have to worry about losing it. That’s not realistic? Is it? My situation stinks a bit cause my husband still doesn’t have a job and my concern is money. I mean part of all am thinking about career wise is that. Money. I don’t have enough and where can I get more. And when and how can I get it quickly.

So I guess I really am trying to evaluate what is it that I want to do. I mean I know that I am good with people and I don’t think I can teach children. I mean younger children my patience level isn’t there. But I would like to be able to do something that will allow me to be home for my kids. But I dont want to keep going to school after they are gone just because I have now decided that its my turn to go back yet again.

what to do? What to do?