Always the same thing…

It’s always the same thing. Unfortunately, it revolves around money. Of course now with the holidays so close by you tend to feel the pain more. You know the one in your pocket, especially if you have children. I mean I really want to teach the boys the value of Christmas. Of the good things about it not just the gift giving portion of it. I want them to understand what it’s like for children who do not have any money at all. Or even get the opportunity to celebrate Christmas.

I mean last week I went through all the boys toys to be able to give it to an orphanage somewhere so other children can play with them and have something for Christmas. Let me tell you I came out of the closet with a large box of action figures, another box of puzzles, some toy guns, etc.  When you see how much money went into all that stuff you learn that maybe just buying frevioulously isn’t the best way to teach your kids things.

I want to bake cookies with them, go see the lights, maybe see some Christmas carolers if we can. (I’ve neverr seen any) But that is what I would like to do.  Not to mention it would save us money. Ryan feels worthless cause he can’t find a job. I tried to explain to him it’s not just him and I know he knows that, but it’s still hard with the holidays and all.  All I can do is pray that things will get better and start lookin up. But you can’t hope for those things if you arent willing to do everything in your power to fix them. Can you? I mean we are so much better off then other people.

We are all healthy, we have food, our bills are paid(for the most part), we have a place to sleep, and clothes on our back. The extras will come when they come. It’s hard to explain that to a 9 and 5year old though ya know.

Well until next time.